I’ve been trying to figure out how to put these thoughts into words lately and I’ve avoided putting this on most social media posts so far, but I kind of just need to put it down somewhere. I had the incredible opportunity to see my favorite band since elementary school perform last night at one of the most iconic stages around. And while the concert was definitely exhilarating and mind-blowing, I haven’t been able to shake this lingering sadness about the whole thing. My very first introduction to Linkin Park was back in elementary school, riding to school in the morning with the Caldera family. Andrew would listen to the Hybrid Theory album every single morning, which quickly led to it becoming our favorite and most listened to album and which began my love for Linkin Park. Fifteen years, six full albums, and several collaborations later, I’m just as much of a die-hard fan now as I ever have been. Seeing Linkin Park in concert was one of our biggest dreams and we always used to talk about how awesome it would be to see them perform live. And while I’m now able to check that off of my bucket list of things to do, it still just doesn’t feel the same knowing that I did it without him. In the months leading up to the concert and throughout their whole set, the thought that he was the one person that I was supposed to go see them with was always in the back of my mind. November 17th will mark six years since we lost him, and while it has gotten easier over the years, this concert has only made me miss him more and more. A large part of me feels like the experience wasn’t entirely complete without him there by my side. Another part of me can’t move past the fact that the very person who got me into Linkin Park - the one who was my closest friend growing up and the one who started it all - never had the same opportunity I just had. And while I would like to believe that Andrew has had the best seat in the house for every single concert since 2008, I know that the experience will never quite be the same for me as I once pictured it being and that I’ll always feel indebted to him for everything I’ve experienced since that first song was played in 2nd grade. So while my mind and my heart are full of so many mixed emotions right now, know that you are certainly not forgotten, Andrew. I miss you all the time and I wish with every fiber of my being that you could have been there with me for that concert. It was one hell of a show and I know you would have loved every last second of it, bud. Thank you again for everything, Andrew. This one was for you.
After 15 years of waiting, I finally had the chance to see Linkin Park perform live and in concert last night! It was such an incredibly amazing show and I’m SO glad I was able to catch this tour! Special thanks to @pinsierae for coming with me and making the night a total blast! #LinkinPark #ThirtySecondsToMars #AFI #CarnivoresTour #HollywoodBowl #WellWorthTheWait #LP #SummerConcerts #BruinAdventures #Latergram (at Carnivores Tour : Hollywood Bowl)
YES! YES! YES! YES! I’ve basically been waiting to see Linkin Park in concert for the last 15 years and I’m finally getting the chance! #LinkinPark #AFI #ThirtySecondsToMars #CarnivoresTour #DreamsDoComeTrue (at Hollywood Bowl)
This kid. ❤ I got to watch my sister march the same parade I marched for four years at the LA County Fair and I couldn’t be prouder. Go, Condors! 😁 #MarchingBand #LACountyFair #LACF #CalHighCondors #PassingTheTorch (at Los Angeles County Fair)
UCLA Football Jersey: ✅ Amazing friends by my side: ✅ Another “W” on our schedule: ✅ It may not have been a very pretty game, but I definitely had a blast at my first UCLA Football game as a Bruin Alum! Now on to the rest of the season! Go, Bruins! #UCLA #BruWINS #BruinFootball #BruinAdventures #AlumniLife #RoseBowl #GoBruins #Latergram (at Rose Bowl Stadium)
I’ve been going through a bunch of old stuff that I’ve hoarded over the years and I happened to come across some McKibben Elementary clothes. Finding out that I still fit in most of them? Priceless. And a little concerning… #McKibbenElementary #Nostalgia #FromBearCubToTrueBruin #ICameFullCircle #TBT #RemnantsOfMyFatPhase (at Whittier, California)